10 days into the year and I'm already thinking back about the past year.
Whilst so much awful things went down that year between "leaderships", terrorist attacks, the Vegas shooting, world disasters like hurricanes and other horrible things (Doki Doki Literature Club being another thing thats horrific but at least that had its moments) happening around us whether it effects you or not, we really should consider ourselves lucky when we have amazing or at least good things happen to us.
The start of this year was not looking good. Me and my (now ex) girlfriend split, LAGC being my last Anime League convention after the news of my good friend Alex B. forced out by the lead of Anime League and Alex telling me what Michael has been up to, and Alex H. told me that she had feelings for me but was stuck in a relationship that she had suffered for being in in the first place. This was a month I refered to at the time as Fucked Febuary. But as with every dark tunnel, there was light at the end of it. Especially since RTXLondon was announced. That was what I needed most. And after some time, Alex H. gained the courage she needed to get out of her other relationship.
Before you say anything, it was made very aparent to everyone that the other guy she was with really made her depressed and he was just really naive and could not see that the relationship was not working. Im not happy by how this happened but there's no need denying that it just did. In hindsight I do feel like I was pushing her into leaving him but I knew once she was free of him Alex would be much happier, whether she was wanting to be with me afterwards or not. Going by the fact that we are still together is a good indication that what we have works. Alex has easily been not just the best part of last year but the best part of my life. Looking forward to moving in with her once I get a job nearer to her.
2017 was a year I wanted to go do more things like I got to see Sean Lock AND Game Grumps and Jacksepticeye at the Hammersmith Appollo, I got to see Hans Zimmer at Wembley Arena and I'll never forget that after his first song he said portions of tonights concerts earnings will go to victims of Grenfell tower which happened the day before the concert. So amazing of him to do that. I've always held a strong belief that music could bring world peace if the world would notice it. Or something like that but it was amazing. Oh and last month I finally got to see Gorillaz perform live at the O2. So glad I got to see them after so long being a big fan. The energy in there could power the world.
Also managed to see The Russel Howard Hour that was good but I really wish I was there for the John Oliver taping, mind would have blown at that taping. I got to meet Tommy Wiseau and Greg Sestero at my all time favourite cinema too, go see The Room at home then see it witj an audience. Its amazing.
One thing that was interesting was that being with Alex I got to share my home county and its surrounding areas like London and Brighton with her and she got to do the same with her home county.Its moments like those where you really see what your other half is like. Moreso in London when Alex is taking everything in and Im behind her saying "Mind your step" as she's in front.
RTXL has been the best event for me. After the MCMLondon in May being just... ok, meeting the people behind my favourite web company, the panels were amazing and were one thing, but the VIP Party made that weekend what it was for me. Getting to meet Miles, Kerry and Gray after the Fan Service stuff Ive sent them since pilot 4 was such a thrill, talking with Burnie about some stuff that is just hearsay at the moment, hearing Joels story about... I think it was getting to bathe a cat that refused to go in the tub, wishing good luck to Chad since after his flight back to US he has to stream RWBYREWIND, and just random talks with Barbara (who is even more angelic in person) Lindsay (who is infectiously happy, though same might be said about many RT people but more noticeable with Lindsay IMO) and Michael (who is just a treat) OH and there was a horror VR game at the back so we got to hear Miles and Ellie do a lets play. Was amazing. And then I see Burnie and Matt for the signing who are amazing. So much so that after the photos, Burnie stopped me and said "You look amazing as Merc Felix, have I given you one of my coins yet?" He did not. He gave me said challenge coin and also told me that "This is for your costume, should also point out that this is one of a few coins for this year that I have left." I left that signing trying not to burst out crying with happiness. Last year I said that I celebrated my 10th year as an ongoing supporter and community member by seing Jon, Jack, Geoff and team RWBY. But that moment meeting Burnie at the session will forever be ingrained in my mind because whilst I was late to RvB by 3 or so years I've always been watching there stuff regularly where as other friends have seen their stuff now and then. The people behind these shows have influenced me, be it the humour, determination, thoughts on certain topics, and being given that coin from Burnie, and think whatever you want about this, but to me it really does feel like OUR love for these people and their work is not left unappreciated.
That was a majority of the past year roughly summerised but it got me thinking about what I want out of this year.
Much like some people said in Burnies VLog about resolutions, I dont do them simply because I lose track of the goals I set myself for. That said I do have some that I think can be managable.
My main goal is to move in with Alex this year but thats dependnt on alot of things culminating in to one but its not impossible by any means. I hope.
My other goals are to stop snacking and just stick with 3 or 4 meals and drink less cokes and other sugary drinks.
Another is to try and write more. Ever since I left High Wycombe I feel I've been less creative and that i've lost my passion for making stories and doing properly crafted artwork. Whilst I have noticed that I love editing video more I want to get back into writing. Maybe even try do a stand up routine.
One other goal I want to work on, but I dont think will go as it should is taking breaks from technology more. Too often do I walk by myself to places with music in my ears. Theres a river not far from me. Why do I not take in the sounds of nature more often?
So theres my retrospective perspective.