Fujy FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Nope

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    • Life update

      1 year ago

      Fujy Nope

      AKA Reasons I'm not as social and active on here as I would like to be.


      Hokay so, I have had a heck of a lot going on recently some good but a lot of stressful and not so good.


      I'm going to start and end on the good things so first of all I have been drawing a lot more recently. Mostly Ace attorney fan art but still, I have been making an effort to draw something no matter how good, bad, finished or unfinished I am at least putting pencil to paper or tablet pen to tablet every day. I'm making progress and I am fairly happy with that. I need to work on a lot of areas that I don't practice as much as should. In other words I need to work on posing and dynamics rather than just faces. Either way I'm fairly happy with my progress and I'm excited to work more on that.


      Second the not fun pretty bad news, this year has been really hard. Even before this year starting in November of 2015 I lost my Grandpa on my dads side, he wasn't blood related but I have known him as my Grandpa for my entire life. In December I lost my Grandma on my dads side. Her memorial service is next weekend in Canada along with a huge family reunion (It's taking so long because she was cremated and wanted to be laid to rest by my paternal grandfather who passed when my dad was 13). Then in January I lost my Grandpa on my moms side. In March we were told at work that we are losing one of our biggest customers to China which happens to be the line I work on. They want to cut costs by 30% and that is all in labor a ray of hope is that they don't want to get rid of anyone so they are going to try and make it work. In April my dads best friend passed away due to stage 4 liver cancer and in May my dad was diagnosed with stage 2 throat cancer. Thank God that it is treatable but he has to go through 2 months of radiation therapy and he owns his own business so he can't work, and last week my mom had a stroke. She is doing a little better but she is still in the hospital undergoing treatment.


      Finally some more pretty good news to end things on, I started Hormone Replacement Therapy in May and it's been going pretty well so far. I made a video about two weeks ago here and plan on making one this weekend of how I give myself my injection.


      Anyways sorry this is a super downer and stuff. I've just been super stressed and am going to be taking a break from twitter and Facebook because I don't need the extra stress from my intolerant family and politically heated debates. I know things are important and I'm informed on the issues. I just need to take a break from everyone else's commentary.


      I hope everyone has a great weekend.


      <3


    • Free Play is my Favorite

      1 year ago

      Fujy Nope

      That is all, the end.

    • Go Fund Me

      2 years ago

      Fujy Nope

      This isn't something that is easy to ask.

      I made a GoFundMe campaign to help me reach the funds I need to have top surgery.

      If you could view and share the link I would really appreciate it. https://www.gofundme.com/3tq9jyjg


    • Text Facebook coming out letter

      2 years ago

      Fujy Nope

      This is the letter I wrote coming out to facebook. I decided to post it here, I'm sorry it is a huge wall of text.






      Okay, so I've been trying to think of how to wright this for a long time.

      First off I before I go into everything want to say that what is in this message is in no way intended to hurt anyone, I don't want to cause problems or make people angry. I just want to be me and I have to say that my amazing husband is the most wonderful, thoughtful, supportive and all around best person I have ever had the pleasure of knowing.

      Now the hard part, I have been terrified of saying this on here for a while because I know a lot of you already know but some don't and those that don't may not have the best reaction.
      All I am asking for is respect as a human being. and I am going to say this now, I don't need any condensation, hate, anyone feeling sorry for me or my husband or anything. If you don't like what you read and can't respect me that's okay just please unfriend me.

      So here it goes,

      I am transgender.

      So what does this mean? It means that I was born a female but have always felt that I was male. I am about to start hormone replacement therapy and have decided to write this out of respect to all my friends and family on this site so you know what is going on with me.

      Now this isn't something I discovered overnight and this was not at all an easy thing to decide to pursue. I have been having a lot of trouble with anxiety and trying to keep depression at bay. Most of my life I have been trying to be okay with who I am and the gender I was born. I never have been, I have always felt out of place, angry with myself and had a lot of issues with my body. As I went through puberty and into adulthood I had many times thought something was wrong, and even found myself thinking that life would be better if I was born a man. I never thought being transgender was a possibility for me. I never expected it would be something that I could do. Especially after I met James and we started dating. I tried to force myself to be happy with how my body is and forced myself into false femininity. I lost weight before we started dating and pretended I was happy with myself. I wanted to be the perfect girlfriend and later wife, all I have ever cared about is his happiness and well being. I'm not used to putting my thoughts and feelings first, I usually end up suppressing them even now to put someone else first. Anyone that knows me knows that I have never been "girly" I never liked make up, never wanted kids, never played with dolls or even really related on the same level with many of my female friends on certain topics. For a long time I pushed myself to just be somewhat "normal" I hated it. I hated every time I wore a dress, every time I had to put makeup on I had to give myself a pep talk just to do these things.

      Now James is my best friend and I could never have imagined having such a supportive amazing and wonderful person in my life. In college I hit a very low point in the way I was feeling, I started to cut myself making my emotional pain physical and into a realm I could understand and that made sense to me. Only a handful of people ever knew, but it has been 5 years since the last time I cut myself because of James. I never wanted to hurt him or upset him. I didn't want him to worry about me.
      I have even made it abundantly clear that at any point, he feel uncomfortable during my transition we will discuss our options and I will even stop transition, THAT is how important he is to me.
      For years I have been dealing with bad anxiety, dysphoria, and self hate/loathing. Even to the point where I would hurt parts of my body that I hated. I would punch myself in the stomach during menstruation and dig my nails into my chest. Making some new friends and learning more about transgender has connected so many dots for me and given me the first chance to be truly happy in my own skin. I have been going though counseling and have realized so much of what I thought and felt as a child connected with this. For the first time in my life I finally understand my frustration and unreasonable anger at myself and I have a chance to make that go away.

      Thank you so much to everyone who is reading this all the way through. I know it is very long, and may come as a shock to some people. I'm sorry I didn't come out to some of you in person. The truth is that I was scared to, I don't want to be rejected or hated by my friends and family just because I'm trying to feel like a person. I love you all, many of you more than you know. I am never trying to hurt or challenge anyone. I just want to be happy, I am and will always be, me.
      ~Lee (Shauna)

      P.S. Lee is the name I have chosen for myself, and I would appreciate it if people would try to remember that and to use Male pronouns (he/him). I know honest mistakes happen and that's okay. Just please try.
      Thank you.

    • Buff Buddies Update 11: Body Problems

      2 years ago

      Fujy Nope

      Okay, so I found out a lot of stuff this week and I am warning now that this will contain some sensitive material.


      So I have been keeping up with my workouts and my diet, but for a while now I just haven't been losing any weight.


      This week I have been keeping up and doing an hour plus on the treadmill as well as starting some chest and ab workouts.


      As far as my weight goes I have been hovering around the same numbers as I started at and even gone up a bit in weight which is really frustrating. I pretty much found out this week why that is. I had my follow up with my doctor on Tuesday and got the results of my blood tests. I found out I have Hypothyroidism which means that my thyroid gland does not produce the hormones that it is supposed to. (basically the Thyroid maintains energy levels, metabolism and more.) Yesterday I got a call back from my doctor because my final lab result had come in and it turns out on top of Hypothyroidism my hormone receptors don't work and I have some very off kilter natural estrogen and testosterone levels. I need to really watch out for breast and uterine cancer till I get my top surgery and hysterectomy.


      I'm sorry if this journal was a bit rambling, I have been trying to figure out a good way to type this one for a while and I am feeling a bit scrambled.


      So here's hoping that with the thyroid treatment I might start dropping some weight soon.

    • Buff buddies Update 10: A very late update and some other things

      2 years ago

      Fujy Nope

      Had a lot of things go on over Christmas, let my diet slip but I have been good about my exercise so that's good at least. Bought the lord of the rings trilogy to watch while I walk on the treadmill. :3 It's the 15 disk blu-ray extended edition with all the commentary and what not so I have quite a bit to watch.


      Working out has gone well, been keeping up with 1hr plus treadmill walk/runs. Been lifting weights and going to start on some chest and abdominal exercises this weekend. Picked back up on the diet this week. I made a stir-fry with light sauce and lots of meat and veggies and today I am making beef barley soup which has smelled delicious all day long driving me crazy.


      Christmas was very hectic, this week has been very hectic as well. Found out my grandmother passed away via casual conversation on Christmas day so that was fun... Also my living grandfather had a stroke on the 23rd when he was due to be released from after care for a heart valve replacement.

    • Buff Buddies Update 9

      2 years ago

      Fujy Nope

      Busy week and busier weekend prepping for the holidays and all the party stuff.


      Unfortunately I made a horrible mistake and made chocolate chip and sugar cookies. Also a pumpkin cheesecake. So I can kiss my diet good bye for the time being...


      Still working out. Upped my time on the treadmill to an hour a day so that is good. working on getting some more free weights to be able to work both arms at once. Also will help me do some chest and ab work outs too.


      So I guess I did good exercise wise but not so much on the food bit... :/

    • Okay so Mini Buff buddie update

      2 years ago

      Fujy Nope

      I did a full hour on the treadmill today and sit ups, I'm super happy and excited to keep up!

    • Buff Buddies Update 8

      2 years ago

      Fujy Nope

      Switching updates to once a week.


      Did really really good this week, and am fairly proud of myself.


      Work outs this week:

      Treadmill 30-45 minutes: Monday-Thursday

      Weights 15-30 reps 3-5 times: Monday, Wednesday, Friday

      Squats 20 reps 2 times: Tuesday, Thursday, Saturday


      Food wise I have been a lot better this week than I have in the past. I have been making an effort to lower my portion sizes and decrease my bread and sugar intake. Made a crust-less quiche using egg beaters with broccoli, a little cheddar and some super thin bacon that turned out fantastic. Went out to eat once and kept what I ate of my portion super small and now I have leftovers for DAYS.


      Weight wise I really haven't lost anything yet. Actually I gained weight, but I think that is just muscle growth before fat loss. My pants are starting to fit me a bit looser so I think that is a good sign.


      I will start posting process pictures in my next journal. I hope everyone is having a fantastic weekend.

    • Buff Buddies Update 8

      2 years ago

      Fujy Nope

      I know I have taken a bit of a break from updating. This week has been a hurdle and I'm getting through it one step at a time.

      Worked out today and I'm feeling really good about that. Going to keep it light for dinner and jump back on the fit train. I have a hard time staying consistent but I'm working on it. Mostly I'm working on holding myself accountable for what I put into my body and my workout schedule regardless of what happens otherwise and I feel like today was a good step forward.

      As far as goals go I am down 3lbs to about 210-212 average.

      It's been difficult to keep up due to my 10hr work days but again I'm holding myself accountable and setting aside workout time and making sure that the food I take for work is healthy.

      As far as the difficult stuff this week, my cousin is still in rehab, my grandma on my dads side has now been moved to hospice and my grandpa on my moms side is going in for heart surgery this Friday.

      I also got my doctors appointment schedualed so I might be able to get started on testosterone before the new year.

  • Comments (11)

    • EmmaLead FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold FeaturedUser World Champ

      4 years ago

      So I tried to leave a comment on your Lads Action News pic, but the site is being a jerk and keeps eating it. Maybe it will be kinder to me here.
      Great job! I really like it.
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      • Fujy FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Nope

        4 years ago

        Thank you! smiley9.gif

    • iWes FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      4 years ago

      Hey. I really like your art. I think it's awesome. Just wanted to share that with you.

      • iWes FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

        4 years ago

        No problem! I enjoyed looking through them.

      • Fujy FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Nope

        4 years ago

        Thank you! That makes me really happy!

    • LostInSweden

      4 years ago

      Thank you for adding me! =D

      • LostInSweden

        4 years ago

        How sweet of you, you seem really nice too. And super thx! =D

      • Fujy FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Nope

        4 years ago

        No problem! You seem like a really cool person and you drawings are adorable!

    • WhiskyOmega

      5 years ago

      G'day and welcome to the site!
      Hope you have an awesome site and make tons of cool friends! smiley0.gif

      • WhiskyOmega

        5 years ago

        It's awesome and I think you'll have a blast here. The community's supper nice and the cast&crew are so much fun to talk with.

      • Fujy FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Nope

        5 years ago

        Thank you! Me too, I'm excited that I finally made an account and can participate.

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