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Ewww, school
Spring semester starts tomorrow, meaning that I will have to get up off my lazy ass and do some homework every once and a while. Yuck. The classes should be pretty fun, though, except for Calculus. Which sucks. But it's the last semester of math i'm going to have to take in HS, and it will leave me with 5 years worth of math before I start my senior year. So i'm going to just suck it up and get through it, so I can have some fun classes next year.
I have sort of re-discovered writing, and I've been working on a couple fanfics of FFnet. They're here if you want to read them.
On a less happy note, my dad and I had a huge fight last night. As usual, it was about stupid shit - this time, because I forgot to unload the dishwasher. When my parents got home and I hadn't done the dishes, he came storming in and started yelling at me. When I went to put up an away message on AIM, and left to go do the dishes, he yelled more because I was "on the computer, and couldn't possibly be on my way to do the dishes." So after we yelled at each other about that for a few minutes, he grounded me for a week and took away the car keys for a week.
My mom came in to talk to me and comfort me. It's really really nice to know she cares, but I just kinda felt like being alone. My dad something (I forget what) that got me sobbing out of control. So my mom said to him "Do you see this? This is a woman in real, serious pain. How does that make you feel?" and he responded "I'm always in pain, because she can't do what we tell her to." Those were his exact words.
I pretty much had a meltdown, and I went to take a walk in the pouring rain. Something in me just wanted to get absolutely soaked with no jacket on, & walk around at one in the morning with nowhere to go. And it did help, my head felt a lot clearer after that, and I ended up thinking about a lot of things having to do with my life - there are a lot of people in my life right now, who don't deserve my time (yes, Matt being one of them).
So I'm turning over a new leaf, and i'm not going to worry about what people think of me if they're not going to treat me like I deserve to be treated. And on the subject of my dad - yeah, I'm getting the fuck out of my house as soon as I can.
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