Venom, because it hurts.
I don't think I'm cut out for this time. What I mean when I say that is, I look at everything about life, everything I'm supposedly supposed to do because it's what society demands, and I don't think I can do it, but more then that, I don't really care to. Why should I? Why should I care? No matter what I do, it all ends the same. I hate to pity myself, and I don't. I know what I am. I'm a stepping stone. And no matter what ever happens, that's all I'll ever be. Happiness isn't something that was ever supposed to be in my future. Finding joy in the small things is hard for me because I feel some subconscious need to complicate things. I ...

Venom, because it hurts.
I don't think I'm cut out for this time. What I mean when I say that is, I look at everything about life, everything I'm supposedly supposed to do because it's what society demands, and I don't think I can do it, but more then that, I don't really care to. Why should I? Why should I care? No matter what I do, it all ends the same. I hate to pity myself, and I don't. I know what I am. I'm a stepping stone. And no matter what ever happens, that's all I'll ever be. Happiness isn't something that was ever supposed to be in my future. Finding joy in the small things is hard for me because I feel some subconscious need to complicate things. I won't ever be able to fix myself, because I'm not broken. I'm incomplete. And that's so much worse. I have no close friends, and that's probably due to my amazing ability to push away people that want to be there for me. I don't begrudge any of them. I'm self centered, which is made overly clear by this post, and I hide it from the world, by coming here, where I know no one, and no one knows me. My life isn't a tragedy. It's a horror movie, and I'm the manic killer. But not of other people. Of peoples peaceful lives, I murder your day. I muck up your phone with texts, your Facebook with posts. I'm the unassuming worthless leech the hides from society. And my existence is a blight on everyone who works so hard to get out there and do something.