Hmm It seems that absence has not necessarily made me feel any more inclined to be a regular here. As such, virtually any time I sign in is probably going to be part of a result of something momentous. If nothing else, this means that at least my journals will take on a much more interesting character content-wise.
As it just so happens, I have some awesome news and some news that, while bad, at least wasn't as bad as it could have been. Firstly, for the awesome (cg1985 will especially appreciate this, I'm sure): I got to go see The Bad Plus live at Jazz Alley. For those of you who aren't fully aware of this group, you should check them out. Groups like this are the reason that I consider contemporary/free jazz to easily be just about at the top of my list of favorite genres. The only thing that detracted from this part of my Saturday was the fact that my car broke down on the way to Seattle, but another friend was going to the concert anyway, so I got a ride with him after getting towed back. It was among the most awe-inspiring moments of my life.
Now then, as far from fond I may be of talking about it, is the bad news. I don't know that many of you remember me mentioning my friend Jenny (I checked through my currently remaining journals and her name doesn't actually show up anywhere, so suffice it say that this journal is about her), but she is central to this news. Firstly, some back story, not the news in question: her choice of college actually ended up being Western instead of Central, but we still would chat and hang out when reasonably possible. Also, on account of the matter of distance, we agreed that it was fair that we should feel free to date other people (a liberty I have yet to exploit, but agreed to more for her sake). Through this process, obviously she has experienced a few ups and downs, but generally has been doing ok. Recently, she had been dating a guy named Raz, with whom she was extraordinarily happy.
A week or so ago, Raz broke up with Jenny for no readily apparent reason. Whenever I would hear about this we were speaking via IM, so while I could certainly tell that she was bummed out about it, I couldn't really get a full understanding of her situation.
Then, Friday night, she wrote me again. Right then I wasn't at the computer due to a performance, but showed up shortly and let her know that I was in fact there. It was at this point that she told me she was thinking of killing herself. After talking a while longer and trying to convince her not to do so, she said "I can't take this" and her status switched to idle. At that point there was precious little I could think to do other than say that if I were so fortunate to find her reading my next comment, then she should call me because I would be wandering around outside trying to take in what I hoped didn't just happen.
I had walked towards downtown Eburg for a few minutes and was quite convinced that Jenny had killed herself, that the most important person in my life was dead and there was nothing I could do about it; simply put, I was in agony. Finally, several minutes later (or maybe not several, it might just have seemed long) I got a call from her. She had, in fact, attempted, but ultimately stopped herself. Needless to say, I was quite relieved.
Yesterday I went to visit her at Western, and thankfully she's doing much better now, though I'm still very concerned for her. Just to add on to her difficulties, the campus counselors have decided that she should be forced to take a quarter off from school, about which she is understandably upset; this would mean her going home where none of her friends are around to give her support (she does at least have her family there, but the point remains), and she really is not fond of Sequim. I can understand why the campus would do that, but in this case I'm not convinced that it will be as helpful as they believe.
Anyway, if you all would be so kind as to offer up whatever variant on prayer/good will you are accustomed to, I would deeply appreciate it. Thank you all in advance.
Hmm It seems that absence has not necessarily made me feel any more inclined to be a regular here. As such, virtually any time I sign in is probably going to be part of a result of something momentous. If nothing else, this means that at least my journals will take on a much more interesting character content-wise.
As it just so happens, I have some awesome news and some news that, while bad, at least wasn't as bad as it could have been. Firstly, for the awesome (cg1985 will especially appreciate this, I'm sure): I got to go see The Bad Plus live at Jazz Alley. For those of you who aren't fully aware of this group, you should check them out. Groups like this are the reason that I consider contemporary/free jazz to easily be just about at the top of my list of favorite genres. The only thing that detracted from this part of my Saturday was the fact that my car broke down on the way to Seattle, but another friend was going to the concert anyway, so I got a ride with him after getting towed back. It was among the most awe-inspiring moments of my life.
Now then, as far from fond I may be of talking about it, is the bad news. I don't know that many of you remember me mentioning my friend Jenny (I checked through my currently remaining journals and her name doesn't actually show up anywhere, so suffice it say that this journal is about her), but she is central to this news. Firstly, some back story, not the news in question: her choice of college actually ended up being Western instead of Central, but we still would chat and hang out when reasonably possible. Also, on account of the matter of distance, we agreed that it was fair that we should feel free to date other people (a liberty I have yet to exploit, but agreed to more for her sake). Through this process, obviously she has experienced a few ups and downs, but generally has been doing ok. Recently, she had been dating a guy named Raz, with whom she was extraordinarily happy.
A week or so ago, Raz broke up with Jenny for no readily apparent reason. Whenever I would hear about this we were speaking via IM, so while I could certainly tell that she was bummed out about it, I couldn't really get a full understanding of her situation.
Then, Friday night, she wrote me again. Right then I wasn't at the computer due to a performance, but showed up shortly and let her know that I was in fact there. It was at this point that she told me she was thinking of killing herself. After talking a while longer and trying to convince her not to do so, she said "I can't take this" and her status switched to idle. At that point there was precious little I could think to do other than say that if I were so fortunate to find her reading my next comment, then she should call me because I would be wandering around outside trying to take in what I hoped didn't just happen.
I had walked towards downtown Eburg for a few minutes and was quite convinced that Jenny had killed herself, that the most important person in my life was dead and there was nothing I could do about it; simply put, I was in agony. Finally, several minutes later (or maybe not several, it might just have seemed long) I got a call from her. She had, in fact, attempted, but ultimately stopped herself. Needless to say, I was quite relieved.
Yesterday I went to visit her at Western, and thankfully she's doing much better now, though I'm still very concerned for her. Just to add on to her difficulties, the campus counselors have decided that she should be forced to take a quarter off from school, about which she is understandably upset; this would mean her going home where none of her friends are around to give her support (she does at least have her family there, but the point remains), and she really is not fond of Sequim. I can understand why the campus would do that, but in this case I'm not convinced that it will be as helpful as they believe.
Anyway, if you all would be so kind as to offer up whatever variant on prayer/good will you are accustomed to, I would deeply appreciate it. Thank you all in advance.
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